Thirty Days of Truth: Day Nine

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Day 9: Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted.

I don't know. People just run through my life, but eventually everyone recirculates. There's a commodious vicus that keeps things fresh and serves our raccoon tendencies.

In 1989 I left a lot of people behind when I moved from Nova Scotia to Saskatchewan. Friends, a girlfriend, a house, a bedroom, a bend in the road, a five minute walk to the ocean. I left behind a place and all the people in it. Goodbye, woman behind the counter at Hilchie's. Goodbye Lido swimming pool. Goodbye Spring Garden Road. Goodbye Little and Big Tancook Island. Goodbye Erica.

But it was not really a past that I left behind. The past is always with me. You don't leave the past; you just dismantle it for easy transport. What you leave behind is a future, one that you will never have. That's what I let go when I left the Maritimes. A lifetime that I can't live, one that I must imagine. But since I believe that imagination and memory are essentially the same thing, separated only by a tissue of certainty, the distinction between the life I remember and the life I imagine seems insignificant. So I suppose I get a life with one past and two diverging futures: think of a wishbone, a dowsing rod, an ever-growing Y.

I hope I'm making better money in that other life.

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Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself